I love to do lists; I love writing them, I love completing them, I love crossing things off them, I love rewriting them in the order that I’ll do the things, I love putting times, days and months next to each item and I have most of them written out in my Lifebook.
– Things to do
– Things to bake
– Places to visit
– Books to read
– Rooms to clean
– Presents to get
– Things to tidy
– People to call
– Pictures to paint
– Things to buy
To do lists are my faithful friend and worst enemy. I’m a task oriented girl so I find lists enable me to order what I want to do for that day or period of time and split them into acheivable tasks and goals. I can cross them off when I’ve done them and I see how productive I’ve been that day.
The problem comes when you don’t do anything on the lists. They linger and nag when you decide to have a day off and if you don’t cross things off them, they can make you feel like you’ve failed. There are days when I want to chill out and do nothing but I can’t help feeling like I’m wasting time and being unfruitful. I could have been a much better student/friend/servant of God if I had actually completed things on my list.
I have to constantly remind myself that God doesn’t love me for what I do, but God loves me for who I am. God loves me just as much when I do all my work, hoover the house, buy birthday presents, read the whole of the Lamentations, have friends over for dinner and lead the CU hall groups as when I dose in the garden all day. There is nothing that I could do that could make God love me any more or any less.
“I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.”